Anger! Anger! Anger!

Have you experienced in such circumstances?

When you think about going home at 5:30pm during the working days or 4:00pm Friday afternoon , one of manager come in and tell you that you have to finish something tonight and he/she want it tonight. And he/she knows you could not finish it in an hour or two. You might stay till 11:00pm or half day on the weekend to satisfied his/her needs for whatever reasons. After you give him/him the things you have done, he/she might have no time to look at it.

In the worse case, he/she doesn't listen to you about more efficient way to do the work. He/she insist that his/her method is the best one. Because of his/her best methods, you could write several lines to explain one discrepancy; instead, you have to prepare a whole working sheet for every line although the most of figure is correct. Accordingly, you doubled your time to finish this assignment and you might be over the budgets.

This is my current situation. I was really mad about someone at work. My heart is full of anger that I hardly control. I tried to think about prayer and tried to forgive her; however, it didn't work. The anger and madness kept me awake after midnight and even stayed in my heart when I got up in the morning. Even, the beautiful sunshine and the blue Saint-Laurent River could not cheered me up this morning.

When one of my colleagues asked me today, "how come you are so happy, so confident, and so energetic everyday?"

I said to her, "You didn't see my dark side. Sometimes, I have my own anger, anxiety, hatred, frustration, struggles and dilemma, too"

Then after work and on the bus, I was still chewing my tiredness, anxiety, and anger due to the overtime works and inefficient way to complete one assignment.

Nevertheless, I was so glad to come back home and saw AL's smiling face. It has been two days and two nights that I have not see him since I left home at dawn and come back home with the full moon in the sky for two days. What a life?

Because you came back home late, you were able to see the full moon in the sky, which you have not got time to watch it for so many year. As it is said in one movie, how many time in your life have you seen the sunrise, sunset or even the full moon. We are all in a hurry or in a rush in our lives, sometimes, we need to take our time to see the beautiful nature the God grant to us. Otherwise, we might wasting our whole lives!

The good news was that the big storm started to pour down the earth after I stepped into my home. I am so glad to be home at 7:00pm on the Wednesday night.